Tuesday, October 7, 2014

What He Must Be...

As a young woman surrounded by a world that is all about relationships, you can hardly be surprised that I have spent a lot of time dream and thinking of "that special someone." And not usually in a silly, giddy, giggly, way at all. . . but Seriously. I have spent time praying for my future husband too, and that alone is so so important. My sister and I used to make lists of things we wanted in a guy, and at first it was silly little things like "brown hair, tall, funny" But as I grew older God really tugged at my heart to start paying attention to the really important things. Character. Passions. Vision. etc;
This is in no way a check list of any kind, just a gathering of things that I have seen in the lives of the men I know. . . things that I admire, and would hope to find in my future husband.

so here is a peek inside my mind. . .

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I want a man who is after my heart, not for what he can get.. but simply for loves sake. A man who sees me for who I am, and embraces every part of me, both the beautiful and the ugly. A man who has gone through the hard work of pursuing God's heart first; in search of mine. A man who understands partnership and has the guts to partner with me and lead from a place of strength, Purity, and faith. It is so important for me to have a husband who can, and will, challenge me spiritually. One whom I can grow with in my faith, and who is willing and able to be the spiritual leader in our home.
Slow to anger is a pretty big priority. 

Broken; he understands how to really rely fully upon Jesus (Philippians 4:12-13)
Ministry minded; concerned about lost souls. (Matthew 28:19)
Motivator; a man of vision; wherever he is, he's faithful (1 Kings 2:3-4)
Sensitive spirit; in tune to the needs of others. (Galatians 6:2)
Understands the awesome responsibility of a husband to his wife, (Eph. 5:25-31) 
Humble; enough to be a disciple [teachable] and be able to disciple others. (Matt. 28:19-20)
Man of prayer; he knows that the key to success is his private time with God. (Col. 4:2)
Family man; he desires to have children, and raise them properly for God's glory. (Prov. 22:6)
He must love God above all else! (Even me)

I'm not out to find a short-term relationship, where I can have the closeness of a man. I'm content with waiting for a leader, someone I can follow, someone that I can be a help meet too. I'm not looking for someone that will fill my emotional needs here and there, but someone who can be used in my life as a sanctification tool. Someone that I could walk alongside that would walk alongside me. I'm praying for a  husband. I'm asking the Lord to send me someone who fears the Lord greatly. A man that has a vision, a mission. Not a man that is perfect. But a man who fears the Lord.
That that is what I'm looking for.

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for Christ ad his kingdom


Faultless . . .


YES, I am full of sin. . .And I do not feel faultless / as I should /
 Every day I feel pain and guilt, even though I know that I have been forgiven and saved by Gods amazing grace.
 Is it wrong for me to feel down? To be honest . . . Sometimes it's on my lowest days
 that I feel closest to God. 
It's not just on the good days that HE IS FAITHFUL. 


#life 
#thoughts 
#thisisme
 #savedbygrace
 

Monday, September 22, 2014

I shouldn't need anything more. . .


Emotions are weird, and emotions are hard to deal with. I was convicted while singing the song "How He Loves", that, I don't always believe what it says. . . if I did, I think I would be living my life a lot differently. The truth is, that on a daily basis I don't live a life that says "I believe there is a God, and I believe HE loves me" how much different would our lives look. . . How much differently would MY life look, if I LIVED like a child who is loved by the most wonderful and supremely awesome Father. . .!?
Instead, I live my life based on how I feel about myself. . .and truth to be honest; I dont love myself very much. . . AND I'm not good at loving myself when I try. Other people aren't good at loving me either, and I'm not good at loving other people.
But what good is it to focus on those things? What more do I need than the Love of the Father? Truth, I shouldn't need anything more. . .
 

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He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree

Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions

Eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are

And how great Your affections are for me


And oh, how He loves us, oh

Oh, how He loves us, how He loves us all





Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Criminal


I am a criminal



I am a liar
I am a thief
I am a murderer, bathed in grief
born into this life of sin
I cant deny the mess I'm in
I've been running 
from what might be. . .
The truth, the end, my penalty.
Scared out of my mind
this tainted heart had made me blind
But now this fact I cant deny,
it's a picture etched upon my mind
the blood that stained my hands and feet 
belonged to the one, who. . .
. . .in my anger, hate, and strife 
still took the blow that saved my life.



Yes, I killed the man who came to be

to live his life and rescue me
Compassion, love. . . in his eye
It took so long to realize
The pain and sorrow tarried there
He held something more that I could bear
MY sin, MY guilt, MY shame.
He took on himself all my blame 
And I'm broken
distraught. . .
How could one have so much love
to stand in place of me, and take my penalty



this idea. .  . it's called selflessness

And though I fail to understand
I praise my God and lift my hands
as one who was and is forgiven
I believe in "My Father who art in Heaven"
a now some day I'll live with Him
Eternally Forgiven.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

My Little Corner of the World


I just finished doing a "makeover" on my room and thought it it would be easiest just to share the pictures here on my blog :):) enjoy this little peek into my little corner of the world.

This is what you see right as you walk into my room.


  
   
   
   I'm so happy to have my guitars hanging up where I can see them (*Grins*)

    
  
    
My cat, Bella :):)

   



 And here are the pictures of the furniture that i refinished.





Anyways, I am very happy with how everything turned out!


Blessings

"Give Me Faith"



I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To open my eyes, to see that You're shaping my life

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To pierce through the dark and cleanse every part of me

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will
I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life
Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will

I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will


by Elevation Worship