Waiting. . .

This time in my life is a time of waiting upon the lord.
And in this time I have found my emotions are so fragile.
I feel as though I am caught in slow motion while everyone else around me speeds by as if in a time-laps.
I am trying to practice patience while God has me waiting. But it is such a hard thing to do sometimes.

I want things too happen in my life, but I want it to happen soon. . . not later. And when it doesnt happen I want to ask; "When, God? Dont you care?" 

For me, I believe a lot of my desire lays in getting married. And I have to be careful not to idolize that in my life. But for a 21 year old woman still living at home, serounded by friends who are getting engaged and married right and left, its hard to be content. It is hard to accept that I have no significant relationships even visible in my future. My own sister got married when she was 18, and a dear friend recently got married at the age of 18 as well. I kow it is a selfish thing to become emotional and forlorn over being 21 and single.....all I can say is, God help me. 

And as I searched for some comfort and encouragment I came across this beautiful artical written by a lady named Mandy Hale exspressing her fear that she might never find the simplest and most complicated of life’s blessings: "someone to love who also loves me." But then as I read on I was convicted through the conversation she had with the lord - as I read . . .

"Then the voice asked me: "If there is never a husband—if it’s always just you and me—will you still follow me?

. . . There was no pause in my spirit. No need to stop and think. Only one answer that rang true, loud, and clear in my heart: Yes, Jesus. I will follow you. I will trust you, and I will follow you through the waiting."

"The waiting. Oh, this sometimes endless and frustrating and even hopeless season of waiting. Wait is a word I keep hearing whispered into my spirit these days, and it’s a word I’m learning to appreciate more and more because I know that all good and beautiful blessings from God take time. Abraham waited 25 years for his promised child. Joseph waited 13 years in slavery for his promised destiny. Moses waited 40 years for the Promised Land. And even Jesus waited! He waited 30 years—mostly hidden, quiet, unassuming years—to begin his earthly ministry that would change the world.

We can learn so much during the hard process of waiting. In difficult seasons of waiting, God nudges me to constantly remember how utterly and completely dependent I am on him. He prompts me to lay down my own dreams and goals and plans and surrender entirely to his. And it is only after I stop chasing success and start chasing him that I can be truly successful—on his terms.

I think that’s the bigger picture God longs for us single ladies to see with the whole “waiting for love” thing. The waiting isn’t about God withholding something good from us—it’s about him showing us that the ultimate good we could ever desire is found in him alone. It has always been him. It will always be him. After all, he is the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end, the one who was and is and is to come (Revelation 1:8)." - Mandy

I thank Mandy Hale for sharing her heart. And I thank god for bringing me to this artical, and using it to encourage me as I wait, and convict me of my attitude.
I am not so desperate. I just have a pining in my heart. But in this I need to focus on my relatonship with God, rather than the lack of relationship with a man.
At this time in my life i need to cultivate strength, faith, and obedience to surrender to Gods good and perfect plan for my life. And I need let go of my imperfect plans. 

“Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.” Psalm 27:14

"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.” Romans 8:25

"...so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light." Colossians 1:10-12

“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior." Isaiah 43:1b- 3a

"The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save: he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he wil exult over you with loud singing." Zephaniah 3:17

"Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you." Isaiah 43:4

I don’t know how I will feel tomorrow. But I know that I am precious to Him. You are precious to Him. And today, that’s all that matters. Right? 

These are just my thoughts for the day. I hope you dont mind my venting.

Rosanna ♥