Saturday, December 17, 2011

So in love with God


I am so in love with God. <3 <3 <3 I am so overwhelmed! I cant even explain it!  I am filled with emotion when I think about Him. But it is so deep down inside.......hard to see from the outside.
But, I do have intimacy with Him, I feel so deeply. He is amazing!
I felt like this when I came back from Uganda...and I was so afraid, then, that it wouldn't last. But with great joy and excitement I am discovering that it is still the same....it IS unexplainable! I have this overload of passionate love for God! I feel him all around me..in everything - I see Him. My faith is not just a knowing anymore.  Not just believing.  There is more, it is real. 

It is a love relationship.
On Sunday, I cried as we sang songs of worship; talking about God's love. Tears flooded down my face, my voice quivered......These were songs that I have sung a million times before, and never had they struck me so deep. Never had I felt so connected to God. It is amazing!
Then again this morning as I read my Bible......In Zephaniah I came across this verse....


                     " The LORD your God is with you.
              He is mighty to save. He will take great delight
         in you,  He will quiet you with his love,  
                    He will rejoice over you with singing! "



And again I was filled with emotion and began to cry. I know that I  have read this verse before....Many times.......And I remember memorizing it when I was a little girl. But it meant so much more to me this morning! It was so incredible. <3 
He is my passion! I LOVE God! I know that nothing in this world can get in the way of Gods love for me! It never ceases to amaze and melt my heart to watch how - as a Loving Father, He brought things into my life that shook my faith, 
knocking me to my knees;
in order to draw my heart closer to His.  
I am convicted by the Love that He has poured out on so many lives. My heart is so full and bursting.  His Love is so incredible.  
I am falling deeper in love with him every day -  

"God, I adore You!" 
I see every day, the way that He loves me through my faithlessness. I see every day, the way He blesses me through trying situations.
My heart is filled with wonder...and awe,
and I fall helplessly in love with the one who created my heart..changed my heart..captivated my heart.
He is mighty..
He loves me..
And HE is HERE with me!


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"The Lord your God is with you
Hes is mighty to save
He will take great delight in you
He will quiet you with His love
 

He will rejoice over you with singing
He will rejoice over you with His song
He will rejoice over you with singing
He will rejoice over you with His song


And through the night (in your darkest hour)
When you are tired (and you've lost all hope)
He will hold you tight


He will rejoice over you with singing
He will rejoice over you with His song
He will rejoice over you with singing
He will rejoice over you with His song"
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I love you all.  God bless.

He Will Rejoice

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Learning to love


I live because of you Jesus..
I can see my lack of love....and I'm convicted -- I need to pour out my love. More and more and more! Love changes everything. Jesus you prove that!  Without love, my actions profit nothing. I want to spend more time with You Jesus......learning how to love.
You captivate me...
humble me..
Your love changed everything..
Your love changed me, and is still changing me.
To whom else should I run? I'm running to your arms. The riches of your love are enough for me....nothing can compare to you! My heart will sing no other name, Jesus.....your name is above all! I am not worthy to call upon it...
But Jesus, I need you..
I need you so much...
All I need is you!
My heart cries "fill me with you Jesus..."
I cant get over your love for me! There is so much comfort and peace in knowing You!
.......Jesus cares for me!
You sustain me. Nothing is the same. "Jesus I love you!" 
Your love is so big...so vast...so amazing! I just cant describe it. I cant get over it!!!!
 I am yours..............

                      " Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; 
                         I have called you by name; you are MINE!"
                                       <3( Isa. 43:1) 

God, is so good. He is totally awesome! In time of need he never fails to revile verses, such as these, to me. And I am again convicted by his love!
It is so boundless....fathomless.....deeper than any chasm....
Your love oh lord, reaches to the heavens. It is Indescribable! 

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Thank you Jesus for your love 
thank you for being my everything..

You are every breath that I need
thank you for giving me life...

Thank you for being the treasure of my heart...

Thank you for sustaining my heart
thank you for overwhelming my soul....

Thank you for a heart that seeks you
thank you for NEVER giving up on me...

Thank you for conviction me
changing my heart
making me Yours...

Thank you for giving me what I need
....Not what I want.
You are so faithful.. .

Thank you for choosing me
though I'm not worthy...
You are Holy!



There are no words to say....
How much I love you Jesus! <3




Wednesday, December 7, 2011

What do I know of Holy


I take God for granted way to often. And I made him way too small in my life before. I allowed many things to be greater than Him. My own selfish desires became more important to me than my relationship with God, and I slipped down, deeper into the pit of sin.  

Satan's lies have clouded my vision and I was unable to see the majestic glory of God. I no longer thought about whether what I was doing was disobedient to God, or whether it hurt Him or cause Him grief. I didn't care about His opinion. He became the last person I ran to in time of need, when I was hurting, when I was struggling, when I needed wisdom... 

It wasn't that I didn't think He was capable.......but rather, that my arrogance and pride clouded my vision......."It’s like the clouds that obscure our view of the majesty and heights of the mountains. It steals our strength before we even start the ascent. - unknown.  
 I thought myself as "unworthy"....which I am! But, it was a selfish thought.....I made myself more holy than God, because I thought that the things I had done were far too great for even God to forgive. Yes, He who sent His son to die on the cross as a payment for everyone's sin. That is like saying He didn't do enough, Jesus didn't suffer enough for our sins. 

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I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven but I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small, I never feared You at all
, no
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold You?


What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
 

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees


What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?


What do I know of holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of holy of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name on earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?


What do I know of Holy?     
 
                       (What do I know of holy - Addison Road)




But now, I see where I messed up...
I'm asking God for forgiveness, and His grace to heal my heart. 
And I'm learning to fear the Lord. 
I want God to be in control of my life because I know that He knows what is best for me!
He is the first person I run to...
He is #1 in my life..
He is my passion....
and I am learning every day about Him, and who He created me to be. 
He is no longer the smallest part of my life he is the BIGGEST! 

I love you Lord!! <3






Blessings ~