What do I know of Holy

I take God for granted way to often. And I made him way too small in my life before. I allowed many things to be greater than Him. My own selfish desires became more important to me than my relationship with God, and I slipped down, deeper into the pit of sin.  

Satan's lies have clouded my vision and I was unable to see the majestic glory of God. I no longer thought about whether what I was doing was disobedient to God, or whether it hurt Him or cause Him grief. I didn't care about His opinion. He became the last person I ran to in time of need, when I was hurting, when I was struggling, when I needed wisdom... 

It wasn't that I didn't think He was capable.......but rather, that my arrogance and pride clouded my vision......."It’s like the clouds that obscure our view of the majesty and heights of the mountains. It steals our strength before we even start the ascent."  - unknown.  
 I thought myself as "unworthy"....which I am! But, it was a selfish thought.....I made myself more holy than God, because I thought that the things I had done were far too great for even God to forgive. Yes, He who sent His son to die on the cross as a payment for everyone's sin. That is like saying He didn't do enough, Jesus didn't suffer enough for our sins. 

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I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven but I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small, I never feared You at all, no
If You touched my face would I know You?

Looked into my eyes, could I behold You?

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

 

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of holy of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name on earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of Holy?     

 
                       (What do I know of holy - Addison Road)

But now, I see where I messed up...

I'm asking God for forgiveness, and His grace to heal my heart. 
And I'm learning to fear the Lord. 
I want God to be in control of my life because I know that He knows what is best for me!

He is the first person I run to...

He is #1 in my life..

He is my passion....

and I am learning every day about Him, and who He created me to be. 

He is no longer the smallest part of my life he is the BIGGEST! 

I love you Lord!! <3

Blessings ~