And I don't know how, or when, or why....but somehow, sometimes I feel as though I'm just falling apart. There's no reason why. I cant find my way. And its strange, cause its only some days I feel this way....its uncontrollable. Tomorrow I'll be just fine...
One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain.
Could the maker of the stars,
hear the sound of my breaking hear.
Hope sleeps without me. Her sweet dreams surround me, But I'm left out
I'll need a fix now, To believe, to feel
One light is all I am,
Right now I can barely stand.
If your everything you say you are
would you come close
and hold my heart.
I find myself in this place...and I think how ridiculous it is that me, one who has been saved by grace and been abundantly blessed, could loose sight so quickly and crumble under the slightest pains in life. Where is my joyful heart? What does this attitude portray about my heart? Should I not be rejoicing every day, not because life is so good and perfect. but solely because I know that Christ died for me....and He loves me. Therefor I should have no reason to be sad, or upset, or emotional. My thoughts are dwelling in the wrong place. Where is my grateful heart?
One tear in the dropping rain,
One voice in the sea of pain.
Could the maker of the stars,
hear the sound of my breaking hear.
These rooms are dark now. These halls are hollow, and so am I
She is hard to find now. To believe. To see
I'm broken. And I cant fix me.....so I'm throwing down this masquerade and I'm asking, God will you please change me from who I've been. Would You take me and break me. I'm totally and completely helpless and hopeless without God. My life without Him is just a vapor in the wind.
I'm on my knees..
begging you to turn to me
I'm on my knees..
Father would you run to me?
And hold my heart..
could you hold my heart?
Hope is what we crave, and that will never change, So I stand and wait
I need a drop of grace to carry me today, A simple song to say
It's written on my soul: Hope's what we crave
Right now I can barely stand.
If your everything you say you are
would you come close
and hold my heart. <3
Wow, I really needed this today. Thanks. Sometimes I think I'm messed up, like I'm the only one who goes through this. It's good to have a reminder that we're not alone, and Jesus is near. Nice choice of songs, too :)
ReplyDeleteDear Charlotte, I really should have responded to your comment months ago, but as I am still learning what it is to be a good blogger, I didn't know whether to comment back to you are not. Anyways, I'm sorry for taking so long! AND, you are definitely not alone. Thank you for your encouragement too!
Delete- Rose