Monday, November 17, 2014

I'm going BACK to Africa!


If any of you know me you are probably aware that in the summer of 2011, four years ago, I went to Uganda, Africa for two months on a missions trip, and have longed to go back ever since. Many of you even asking, on a regular basis, when I plan on going back. After four years of praying and waiting, it has been decided that I will be returning to Africa for 3 weeks in the spring of 2015 with NGM (Next Generation Ministries)! I couldn't possibly be more excited for this opportunity and I can not wait to see my Africa family again.

I know you will ask what I will be doing there, and since I have been before it seems that I would be better equipped than last time to give an answer. However, I must say that you can never give a perfectly accurate description of the work that God is about in and though his people. These missions trips are made to focus on individual relationships with people and your own relationship with God. And in the time since it was started  Next Generation Ministries has seen many of the Ugandan people come to a devout faith in Christ; and grow, as young men and woman of God. NGM is committed to changing the nation of Uganda one person at a time through mentoring and discipleship that is based on deep interpersonal relationships rather than building projects, or staged events and programs. What could be more rewarding than being involved in work like this? 

I am highly depending upon your support to make this trip happen. Even though I do have a job, it is only part time. And I am saving as much of my paycheck as possible to go towards this missions trip. The overall financial need is a maximum of $3,000 (by March 2015) for my ticket, the expenses of my stay there, vaccines,  as well as money for ministry purposes. The idea is to minister through relationships, but there is always an opportunity to bless a family with new bed mattresses, food, or to share in paying for medical attention..etc; And to have enough funds to do such things is my desire. If you can support me in a financial way, I would be very grateful. And, most importantly, I also need your prayer support. Prayer is the fuel that we need as we follow God's leading in ministry. I know God will provide for me if it is His will for me to go.


I will add a link to my "Go Fund Me" account. 
And if you would like to send your donation via snail mail my address is

Po Box 534
Fernwood ID, 83830

Checks can be made out to Rose/or Rosanna Primer



And here is a slideshow of my Uganda trip in 2011 if any of you are interested in seeing pictures of life in Jinja Uganda(:
Love and blessings to each and every one 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

What she must be // guest writer


It was requested that I write a sequel to "What He must be" and title it "What She must be". However, in these past busy weeks I have been tied up in how and when I would sit down to write. And not only that but I also felt as though it may be better to hear such a topic from a Mans point of view. 

Well...my dear sister and her husband so happened to make a very surprise visit all the way from New Mexico, and while they were here I was able to talk to my brother-in-law on the subject AND asked him if he would guest write this blog post for me. He graciously accepted the challenge, and I highly agree with that which he has written down for ya'll to read and ponder. 

So, without further ado . . . 



Scott Willis

November 4, 2014


What she must be

A man's perspective on whom to pursue


A long list of requisite qualities and characteristics which a young Christian man may
maintain and to which he may often refer when he meets a young lady is not a bad thing; nor
should it be considered overly prudent to be quite choosy in considering who to pursue as a mate.
But the one trait that is of primary importance is that of deep and abiding humility. Humility is
the chief of all virtues, both in men and women. Jesus himself came in total humility (Luke
22:27, Phil 2:5-9). We want Christian spouses, and no Christian is made by God without the
infusion of humility in the soul. Therefore humility is the first, the highest of all all graces.
Humility is what makes a Christian a Christian, because no one can be saved without it. From
humility flow all the other virtues: selflessness, sacrifice, honesty, and all others; they proceed from
the humble heart. A single man who wants a wife should look for a lady who is humble, because
the truly humble feminine heart yields all the other desirable qualities in a wife.
First, if a young woman possesses the humility which is native to a regenerated/saved soul,
then she will have the blessings of the indwelling Spirit of God for all of her life (1 Cor 3:16); this
is the single greatest blessing a man could wish for in his wife. If she has the Spirit of God, then
she has the promise of life-long sanctification (Phil 1:6), so that a man may know certainly that
she will be a wife who will, over the years, grow in grace and wax greater in every virtue and in
all affection.
As a second example, we might rightly say she also must be modest, not given to vanity. But
humility is the vanguard against vanity. Humility is the very opposite of vanity because humility
doesn't think of itself, but only how it may serve others. The humble woman seeks to honor God
and bless others even with her beauty, while the vain woman seeks glory for herself, idolizing the
ephemeral accolades of a fickle world. Therefore the humble woman will be modest.

We might further say that she must be diligent; and humility will make her so (Proverbs 31).
If she is humble at heart, she will think of her duty and her future and her family before herself;
and, having these things at the fore of her heart, she will pursue what is best for them, and do so
tenaciously and assiduously; that is to say, diligently.
In short, young men should look for a woman who is both humble and actively cultivating
humility. How would she appear to do so? If he sees her serving her family, submitting to her
parents, refraining from the spotlight of attention in social situations, listening more than
speaking, smiling (knowing the joy of fulfilling her divine feminine privileges), taking an interest
in those with whom she may converse rather than dominating the conversation by talking always
about herself, and generally trading her interests for the blessings of God upon those within her
sphere of influence. If he finds such a lady, he should consider himself blessed by God, and
ought to be humbled himself, and to feel unworthy of her. Her humility ought to increase his;
and his ought to inspire hers. This is the formula for a beautiful marriage, and so this is what she
must be: truly, divinely, and deeply humble.
We should recognize that this vignette of a humble woman is precisely the same vignette of
a humble young man. A single woman should look for a man who is humble; and her search will
find her seeking a man who serves his family, submits to his parents, stays out of the spotlight, is
slow to speak and quick to listen, does not dominate conversation but instead interests himself in
the lives of others, and trades his time and energy for the blessings of God upon others.
Humility in his heart will lead him to do this; the difference between his humility and hers is only
found in their respective roles as man and woman; not in essence, motivation, purity, nor object
of their humility because the essence and purity of their respective humility comes from the same
God, and the motivation, object, or goal, of the humility in each of their hearts is His glory.




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I would only add that first and foremost that it is of utter most impotence that a woman truly Love God MORE than herself. Second; that she be selfless/servant hearted. Kind/loving. And also that she be Industrious (or as Scott said, diligent.) And of course, if one is humble...these aspects and character quality's stem from the humble heart.

I believe that one must be humbled first, before ever seeing their own need for the Lord.
So there you have it. . . preparation to be a wife starts with your faith. What do you need? 

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

What He Must Be...

As a young woman surrounded by a world that is all about relationships, you can hardly be surprised that I have spent a lot of time dream and thinking of "that special someone." And not usually in a silly, giddy, giggly, way at all. . . but Seriously. I have spent time praying for my future husband too, and that alone is so so important. My sister and I used to make lists of things we wanted in a guy, and at first it was silly little things like "brown hair, tall, funny" But as I grew older God really tugged at my heart to start paying attention to the really important things. Character. Passions. Vision. etc;
This is in no way a check list of any kind, just a gathering of things that I have seen in the lives of the men I know. . . things that I admire, and would hope to find in my future husband.

so here is a peek inside my mind. . .

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I want a man who is after my heart, not for what he can get.. but simply for loves sake. A man who sees me for who I am, and embraces every part of me, both the beautiful and the ugly. A man who has gone through the hard work of pursuing God's heart first; in search of mine. A man who understands partnership and has the guts to partner with me and lead from a place of strength, Purity, and faith. It is so important for me to have a husband who can, and will, challenge me spiritually. One whom I can grow with in my faith, and who is willing and able to be the spiritual leader in our home.
Slow to anger is a pretty big priority. 

Broken; he understands how to really rely fully upon Jesus (Philippians 4:12-13)
Ministry minded; concerned about lost souls. (Matthew 28:19)
Motivator; a man of vision; wherever he is, he's faithful (1 Kings 2:3-4)
Sensitive spirit; in tune to the needs of others. (Galatians 6:2)
Understands the awesome responsibility of a husband to his wife, (Eph. 5:25-31) 
Humble; enough to be a disciple [teachable] and be able to disciple others. (Matt. 28:19-20)
Man of prayer; he knows that the key to success is his private time with God. (Col. 4:2)
Family man; he desires to have children, and raise them properly for God's glory. (Prov. 22:6)
He must love God above all else! (Even me)

I'm not out to find a short-term relationship, where I can have the closeness of a man. I'm content with waiting for a leader, someone I can follow, someone that I can be a help meet too. I'm not looking for someone that will fill my emotional needs here and there, but someone who can be used in my life as a sanctification tool. Someone that I could walk alongside that would walk alongside me. I'm praying for a  husband. I'm asking the Lord to send me someone who fears the Lord greatly. A man that has a vision, a mission. Not a man that is perfect. But a man who fears the Lord.
That that is what I'm looking for.

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for Christ ad his kingdom


Faultless . . .


YES, I am full of sin. . .And I do not feel faultless / as I should /
 Every day I feel pain and guilt, even though I know that I have been forgiven and saved by Gods amazing grace.
 Is it wrong for me to feel down? To be honest . . . Sometimes it's on my lowest days
 that I feel closest to God. 
It's not just on the good days that HE IS FAITHFUL. 


#life 
#thoughts 
#thisisme
 #savedbygrace
 

Monday, September 22, 2014

I shouldn't need anything more. . .


Emotions are weird, and emotions are hard to deal with. I was convicted while singing the song "How He Loves", that, I don't always believe what it says. . . if I did, I think I would be living my life a lot differently. The truth is, that on a daily basis I don't live a life that says "I believe there is a God, and I believe HE loves me" how much different would our lives look. . . How much differently would MY life look, if I LIVED like a child who is loved by the most wonderful and supremely awesome Father. . .!?
Instead, I live my life based on how I feel about myself. . .and truth to be honest; I dont love myself very much. . . AND I'm not good at loving myself when I try. Other people aren't good at loving me either, and I'm not good at loving other people.
But what good is it to focus on those things? What more do I need than the Love of the Father? Truth, I shouldn't need anything more. . .
 

~


He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree

Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions

Eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are

And how great Your affections are for me


And oh, how He loves us, oh

Oh, how He loves us, how He loves us all





Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Criminal


I am a criminal



I am a liar
I am a thief
I am a murderer, bathed in grief
born into this life of sin
I cant deny the mess I'm in
I've been running 
from what might be. . .
The truth, the end, my penalty.
Scared out of my mind
this tainted heart had made me blind
But now this fact I cant deny,
it's a picture etched upon my mind
the blood that stained my hands and feet 
belonged to the one, who. . .
. . .in my anger, hate, and strife 
still took the blow that saved my life.



Yes, I killed the man who came to be

to live his life and rescue me
Compassion, love. . . in his eye
It took so long to realize
The pain and sorrow tarried there
He held something more that I could bear
MY sin, MY guilt, MY shame.
He took on himself all my blame 
And I'm broken
distraught. . .
How could one have so much love
to stand in place of me, and take my penalty



this idea. .  . it's called selflessness

And though I fail to understand
I praise my God and lift my hands
as one who was and is forgiven
I believe in "My Father who art in Heaven"
a now some day I'll live with Him
Eternally Forgiven.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

My Little Corner of the World


I just finished doing a "makeover" on my room and thought it it would be easiest just to share the pictures here on my blog :):) enjoy this little peek into my little corner of the world.

This is what you see right as you walk into my room.


  
   
   
   I'm so happy to have my guitars hanging up where I can see them (*Grins*)

    
  
    
My cat, Bella :):)

   



 And here are the pictures of the furniture that i refinished.





Anyways, I am very happy with how everything turned out!


Blessings

"Give Me Faith"



I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To open my eyes, to see that You're shaping my life

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

I need You
To soften my heart and break me apart
I need You
To pierce through the dark and cleanse every part of me

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will
I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will

Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life
Give me faith to trust what You say,
That You're good and Your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give You my life

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will

I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me
My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will


by Elevation Worship

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Pondering's


Since last fall I have been studying James in the bible. It started with just memorizing it for bible quizzing, but as the quiz season was coming to a close I still found myself reading in James and thinking upon each verse. Many times when I open my bible to read, intending to read (for instance) in Acts, I eventually found myself turning to James. So it seems that these verses lay heavy on my heart.
I came to love the book of James even more while reading War Of Words by Paul D. Tripp on our family vacation a couple of weeks ago. I was greatly convicted through War or Words and James of the way I speak and use my words on a daily basis, and also just my whole outlook on life.
I'd like to share some verses, along with some of my own thoughts, and a few quotes from Paul Tripp.


"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." (James 1:2-4)

Here, a quote from Paul Trip fits perfectly... " God is using the things in our lives to accomplish his work in us. These circumstances are a principal means by which God actually produces what he predestined for our lives before the foundations of the world. That we would be a transformed into likeness of Jesus." How often do we praise God and thank him in days of sunshine, yet grumble in days of rain!? The earth cannot continue to grow and produce beauty, as it does, without having both sunshine and rain! Is it not also so with our own lives? These verses always come to my mind when I am having a rough time and begin to grumble and think things like "why is this happening to ME!" or when I become frustrated at the struggles in life. And these verses have helped to reverse my whole attitude about a situation.


"Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God." (James 1: 19 - 20)

Once I heard these verses summed up this way "...Lead with your ears, follow with your tongue, and let anger struggle along in the rear!" I love that. Often I get myself in trouble by speaking before I think, or before I know the situation. It is so so very important to pay attention and to listen and observe those around you and to remember that whatever comes out of your mouth represents God! "With our talk we are imaging our creator and Lord, OR we are imaging the serpent Satan. Our words build and give life or they tear down and destroy." Words are not cheep.


"For we all stumble in many ways. And if anyone does not stumble in what he says, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle his whole body. 3 If we put bits into the mouths of horses so that they obey us, we guide their whole bodies as well. 4 Look at the ships also: though they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs. 5 So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things.
How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! 6 And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell. 7 For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and sea creature, can be tamed and has been tamed by mankind, 8 but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. 9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. 10 From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so. 11 Does a spring pour forth from the same opening both fresh and salt water? 12 Can a fig tree, my brothers, bear olives, or a grapevine produce figs? Neither can a salt pond yield fresh water." (James 3:2-12)


(vs. 7-8) Our communication problems cannot be solved by normal human means. Paul Tripp say's " Human conflict is rooted in spiritual idolatry." We need to make things right with God, we need to examine our hearts, repent, and ask for forgiveness. AND our hearts need to then change.
(vs. 10) Our words should first bring God all the glory he deserves. And second, our words should bring redemptive good into the lives of the people around us that God has brought into our lives.


The first verse that stuck out to me as I read and memorized James, is in Chapter 3 verse 16
"For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice."
And I thought that this quote from Paul Tripp went really well with it. "Where do you think all these appalling wars come from? . . . .They come about because you want your own way, and fight for it deep inside yourselves." - Paul D. Tripp


"What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? 2 You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. 3 You ask and do not receive, because you ask wrongly, to spend it on your passions." (James 4:1-3)

"When desires battle for "turf" in our hearts, it will effect the way we deal with the people around us. Whatever controls our hearts will control our words." This quote from Paul Tripp made me self contentious about the way I speak especially to my siblings. Selfishness often rules in my heart when it comes to my siblings.....either I don't like what they are doing because it is inconvenient to me, or I find my self annoyed at their interrupting and for being a distraction when I want to be doing other things. So I speak words of frustration out of selfishness that things aren't going how I want...and those words can injure.


I've just skipped around and shared only a few verses with you, but really it is hard to get a good perspective unless you read the whole book. I would encourage you to read through James, pay attention, and see what sticks out to you. There is, really, so much more that I have taken from the study of the book of James, and also from reading War of Words.... but it is hard for me to communicate all that I wish that I could communicate from what I have learned.


Anyways, I am praying that these verse and what I have learned from them will be evident in me life, and that the changes I am making, and striving to establish in my life will be long lasting! And that I wont forget easily and turn back to my old ways.


Love and blessings, always <3










Thursday, April 24, 2014

Oh my Word!


So, you guys have probably got this figured out already....but, I have a weakness for quotes. Its only a small infatuation, nothing to extreme or dominating. I just have 3 boards on Pinterest (if not more) that are absolutely full of quotes :-) As well as two journals. Its not like, an obsession or anything. . .

Anywho...I thought that I would share a few that I found! I hope you enjoy <3 




































OH! And please....I would love to hear some of your favorite quotes! 
You can comment them below or send them through email, Facebook, or Pinterest.

Have a lovely weekend ya"ll!