What is Eternal Life . . ?

At our youth bible study on Tuesday night we watched the 4th session of the Truth Project by Del Tackett. In his class he posed sever questions....Who is God? Why did Jesus come? What is Truth? and What is Eternal life? 

What is Eternal life. . . ?

I know what eternal life is. . .  it is, Eternal; [Forever; without end or beginning.] Life; [Existing. The existence of an individual] Eternal life is what happens when those who believe "pass away" right? We get to go live with God forever in heaven, never to die.

 Hmm. . . 

Del Tackett took us through John 3:16, and John 4, John 5 and eventually to John 17. Here it took a turn that most people wouldn't expect. (At least, I didn't)

""Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, 
and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent." (John 17: 3) 

Eternal life is knowing God. That seems pretty simple. Are you disappointed with that definition? You think you know God, and you still aren't satisfied. But in this verse- to "know" means so much more than an intellectual knowledge of something or someone. This "knowledge" is deep and intimate, and close. It's a personal relationship with God. 

Personal; [of or concerning one's private life,

 relationships, and emotions]

Intimate; [closely acquainted; familiar]

I know that I have known this, but just in having it brought to my attention again I realized that I already have eternal life, it began with a choice to believe. It's exciting to think both you and I have eternal life. And all our brothers and sisters in Christ. That is awesome ; )

I know that I have not cared for my relationship with God as I should, and that is so disheartening to me. . . It makes me incredibly ashamed. But God grace is there, and it amazes me. . .  even though I do/have lived poorly, eternal life is still mine. 

AND . . . it's for right now! I don't have to wait  until I get to heaven to experience it! 

"It’s not “pie in the sky by and by” but rather “steak on your plate while you wait.”

John 3:16 says that God loved the world so much, He gave His only begotten Son so those who believed on Him wouldn't perish but have everlasting life.  If you have chosen to believe on Jesus just so that you won’t go to hell and are now just waiting around till you go to heaven, then you are missing out on the everlasting life that God promises and longs to have with you. God wants you right now!

So here's my questions;

Do you know God?

Emotions... | Good or bad?

Do you ever think that you are absolutely ridiculous for feeling the way that you do?

Welcome to my world.


At bible study a while ago, everyone attending was asked to describe themselves with one word.  My one word; Emotional. It describes my whole being. Basically...how I live each day. My emotions, I admit, rule my life most of the time. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that having emotions is bad. Emotions can be good, happy even. But how often do you associate the word "emotional" with "happy"  or "joyful". . . not very often huh?! I remember being teased a lot when I was younger for being too sensitive. So in my mind this sensitivity is bad, or annoying. I have to tell you though, I feel for other people too....not only myself......and I don't know if I would call that a blessing or a curse?  It's exhausting! But at the same time, it helps me to be able to understand people and be compassionate for them, and to them.
I just don't I like being one who FEELS so much, so often. The one thing that I am sure of is that I can not change this thing about me. Not is my own strength anyways. What if this is just who I am? So, I am trying to figure out how to balance my emotions so that they don't effect me, or other people, in a negative way.  I am so sorry to anyone whom I have effected in a bad way by my out of control emotions.  And, for those who have listened and encouraged me through times when even I cant stand my self; Thank you, so much,  from the very depths of my emotional and "feel-y" being. I don't know what the purpose of this post is . . . besides maybe just venting a frustration.
I don't have a lesson here, or an answer Its a little truth about me. Rosanna ♥

Father, please, steady my heart. .

                  ...renew my strength 

"The LORD is my strength and my song; 

he has become my salvation. 

He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, 

and I will exalt him." (Exodus 15:2) 

"My soul melts away for sorrow; 

strengthen me according to your word!" (Psalm 119:28) 

"Fear not, for I am with you; 

be not dismayed, for I am your God; 

I will strengthen you, I will help you, 

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10) 

"....that according to the riches of his glory 

he may grant you to be strengthened with power 

through his Spirit in your inner being" (Ephesians 3:16) 

"O Lord, my Lord, the strength of my salvation, 

you have covered my head in the day of battle." (Psalm 14:7)

I continually look to myself for strength. When times in my life are hard....I'm ashamed to say that the first place I run is NOT to God. Its either to my family, friends, or myself.....Even though I KNOW that God is the supplier of all my strength, He tends to be my last resort. Why is that? Its my own sinful nature. That's the only way I know how to explain it. So many times it says in the bible "my strength is in the Lord, HE gives me strength when I need it.....just at the right moment! Look to the Lord for strength!" Yet, every time.....every time my life gets messy, I turn and run almost in the opposite direction from the strength that awaits me. 

My heart leads me in the wrong direction, because it is "deceitful above all things, and wicked: who can understand it." (Jeremiah 17:9) I definitely don't understand it. 

My heart is so flimsy, and it knows not what is best for me.

At this time in my life, I feel so very emotional, and tired, and worn out....spiritually dry. And I recognize that I need God, I am ever in need of his grace in my life, and his strength to pass through the tough spots. The messy days. 

I do not want to continue to walk blindly through these trials, trying to find my own way. 

So, I want run to Him and poor myself out to Him. 

I want to humble myself before him, confessing my ignorance to Him. 

I want Him to take my heart! I trust Him to take my heart and steady it.....make it whole! 

To give me strength....and carry me through the fire.

Wish it could be easy 

Why is life so messy?

Why is pain a part of us?

There are days I feel like

Nothing ever goes right

Sometimes it just hurts so much

But You're here

You're real

I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

'Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my hear

I'm not gonna worry

I know that You've got me

Right inside the palm of your hand

Each and every moment

What's good and what gets broken

Happens just the way You plan

You are here

You're real

I know I can trust You

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

'Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my heart 

And I will run to You

And find refuge in Your arms

And I will sing to You

'Cause of everything You are

You steady my heart

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to You

'Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

You steady my heart

I'm not gonna worry

I know that you've got me

Right inside the palm of your hand

                               - Steady my heart by Kari Jobe

^This is the cry of my heart. 

To the God of all creation, who knows each and every one of his children by name, I pray that You would incline Your ear to me. Hear me. I confess that I have not honored You as I should in my life, I fail You every day. But, Father, would you grant grace, strength, and mercy.....even to the wretched sinner that I am. Thank you for Your ever present love and care in my life. You are so good, even when there is nothing good in me. You are so worthy of all my adoration. My heart belongs to You. 

Amen

Africa Update!

It is officially official :)
We are going to Uganda, Africa THIS YEAR!

Tickets have been bought!

And, as in "we" . . .  my dear dear friend Brenna is joining me! I am so so so excited to share this experiences with my best friend. And I am so glad that God has made it possible for us to go together. This lady has blessed me by her ever present friendship and care. I thank God so much for giving such a wonderful friend to me.
 <3 I love you so much Brenna <3 

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And I would love to just say Thank You so much to those who have donated to my Uganda trip, and helped me get the funds I need.

I am still highly dependent upon your support to raise the rest of the funds I need. I have about $1,500 to raise before I leave on April 15th, 

but I believe that God will provide what I need :):)

Here is a link to my "Go Fund Me" account. 

And if you would like to send a donation by mail, my address is

Po Box 534

Fernwood ID, 83830

Checks can be made out to Rose/or Rosanna Primer